Confused

For some reason I can't help but feel guilty.....I know it's been 4 months since my grandma died and I miss do mis her, but for some reason it was harder for me when my dog (Gypsy) died than when Grandma did. This is the first death of a family member that I've experienced but shouldn't I miss my grandma more? When Gypsy died it was really hard for me (I cried when we had to put her to sleep) but I can't seem to cry over my grandma's death. It just feels like it never happened and she's still here - it's still really hard to beleive.........I'm really confused! Is this normal? :/
I dunno...maybe it's because I know I'll see my grandma again and I may not see Gypsy? I just don't know how to feel..................... am I totally wrong for feeling this way?

On another note -

~ I had fun tonight with my friends at the Philadelphia. I'm really happy I got involved with the group

~Stations are at St. Stanislaus on Friday. The only thing is that they are at 5:30 whereas usually the other Parishes have Stations at 7.....not sure yet if I'm going - I may just go to St. Thomas

~ Last night was really fun! Luke came over and I went with him and my parents to Applebees and then to a movie (we saw Jumper -which I liked). I really like when I can hang out with Luke - I miss him not being at home :/