Discernment

People are going to take a lot of journeys in their lifes. Some may be longer/shorter than others, some may be tougher, happier, painful than others. Everyones journeys are different, never the same, never identical. As much as they are all different and don't resemble, one thing about all journeys taken in life are alike in one aspect; you learn from it. Everyone learns something from their journeys, but what is learned is different than others. You may learn what you did wrong, what someone else did wrong, or what made you happy and what didn't, or even what made you the person you are today. I have to face it. And I know it's hard, and it's going to be hard for a while. But I want to be strong for my friends, my family, but most of all for myself. I want to be happy again, I want to move on with my life from this journey. I need to be proud of myself, and I'm going to try to be. I need to keep telling myself my real feelings are just as important to others rather than hiding it from the world, especially those closest to me. I'm not only lying to those I love, but also to myself. I need to focus on myself and changing both spiritually and morally. My pride has gotten in the way too much this summer and the devil has been tempting me and "telling" me things that aren't true -I've been weak and I can't let it happen any longer!!! I won't! I need to fight him off so I don't hurt the people I love or the future people I will meet in life. I want to chage - too much of my past has had a hold on me and as much as it's hard to let it go, I know I need to. It's not going to be easy.........
After much prayer and consideration I have decided to help in any way with RCIA. On Sunday Fr. Dan had mentioned that people were signed up for RCIA but there were no sponsors. He told the congregation that even if we feel we need a refresher course or if we feel God is pushing us towards helping in any sort of way to come.
He said it can be a way to meet the candidates and maybe become a sponsor - I need to do this for myself. I feel it may help in a way and I'd be helping others in the long run.
Today at 7 is the first session (it continues until the Easter Vigil). Please keep me in your prayers as I go through a long process of discernment and Letting go and Letting God.
I will keep all of you in my prayers as well!